no boundaries.

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
And what if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge
Run every line
I risk being safe
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
With every breath it's harder to beleive
You make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one place
When you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause theres nothing between you and your dreams

There are no boundaries .

listening to. no boundaries. adam lambert.
johlinn.

afterlife.

Like walking into a dream,
so unlike what you've seen.
So unsure but it seems,
'cause we've been waiting for you.
Fallen into this place,
just giving you a small taste.
Of your afterlife here so stay,
you'll be back here soon anyway.

I see a distant light, but boy this can't be right.
Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be,
Arrived too early.

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong,
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far.

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain.
Can leave this place but refrain, 'cause we've been waiting for you.
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste.
Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway.

This peace on earth's not right
No pain or sign of time
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign.
I've made up my mind.

Give me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye.
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life.

Loved ones back home all crying
'cause they're already missing me.
I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening.
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be.
I am unbroken, I'm choking on this ecstasy
Oh Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live.

I don't belong here,
I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife.
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,
far away from here.
Got nothing against you
and surely I'll miss you.
This place full of peace and light,
and I'd hoped you might,
Take me back inside when the time is right.

listening to. afterlife. a7x.
johlinn.

chapter four.

Give me your hand,
Conceived and born was one of light
blood is spilt and man will follow
infernal man,
Rain and dark, the other born black night
punishment too great to bear

Raise your head and taste the courage
the one of light
Fall from grace, unholy night

I've come here to kill you,
won't leave until you've died
Murder born of vengeance,
I closed my brothers eyes tonight...

It's cold tonight as the clouds turn grey
and from my hands to my brothers grave
You took his side, you took his gift,
feel the power of a fallen man,
crestfallen man...

Where has he gone? What have you done?
A voice commands from high above this earth.
From the soil his blood cries out to me
Murder, liar, vengeance, deceit.

Far away in this land I must go,
out of the sight of the One.
A punishment sent from His hand
a hardship that no one should know
Now go out of the sight of the One,
away in this land you must go.

listening to. chapter four. a7x.
johlinn.

vanilla twilight comes again.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"

listening to. vanilla twilght. owl city.
johlinn.
do you know imiss you? ):

pins and needles.

Never understood how he could,
Mean so little to so many
Why does he mean everything to me?

Questioning his good intention
Jealousy's a bad invention
When you push on glass, it's bound to break

Even when he was defensive,
It just gave me more incentive
The more you squeeze, the more it slips away

I never walked so far on a lonely street
With no one there for me
Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Accept this confession!
I'm walking on pins and needles...
You're not my possession!
I'm walking on pins and needles...
My conscience is vicious!
I'm walking on pins and needles...
And I'm begging forgiveness!
I'm walking on pins and needles...

I never walked so far on a lonely street,
With no one there for me
It took too long to see him in misery
And now it's clear to me

That it's worth the pain, always take the blame
For all your own insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

listening to. pins and needles. billy talent.
johlinn.

your guardian angel.

Now I am strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

Cause you're my, you're my, true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

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OMGGGGGGGG...imiss him so damn freaking MUCH!
icant imagine it'll be like THAT! ):
Imiss seeing your name lighting up whenever you talk to me on msn.
you dont start conversations with me anymore
and im too scared to start one. :/
____________________________________
listening to. your guardian angel. red jumpsuit apparatus.
johlinn.

kings and queens.

Into the night
Desperate and broken
The sound of a fight
Father has spoken

Into your eyes
Hopeless and taken
We stole our new lives
Through blood and
In defense of our dreams

The age of man is over
A darkness comes and all
These lessons that we learned here
Have only just begun

We were the Kings and Queens of promise
We were just phantoms of ourselves
Maybe the Children of a Lesser God
Between Heaven and Hell

We are the Kings
We are the Queens

listening to. kings and queens. 30 seconds to mars.
johlinn.

if my heart was a home.

You're the sky that I fell through
And I remember the view
Whenever I'm holding you
The sun hung from a string
Looking down on the world as it warms over everything
Chills run down my spine
As our fingers entwine
And your sighs harmonize with mine
Unmistakably
I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me
We got older and I should've known
Do you feel alive?
That I'd feel colder when I walk alone
Oh, but you'll survive
So I may as well ditch my dismay
Bombs away...

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass you'd be north
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house you'd be home

It makes me smile because you said it best
I would clearly feel blessed if the sun rose up from the west
Flower balm perfume, all my clothes smell like you
Cause your favorite shade is navy blue

listening to. if my heart was a home. owl city.
johlinn.

airplanes.

can we pretend that airplanes
in the night skys
are like shooting stars?
icould really use a wish right now.
_______________________

went out with nad and syahada today.
had fun yeah!
:D















listening to. airplanes. B.O.B ft. hayley williams.
johlinn.

the river.

As I walk through the valley
of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
to know that beautiful things
don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
to know this beautiful place
isn't everything they say

I heard that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered.

You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
underneath these lights
Down in Hollywood
on the boulevard the dead come back to life
To the praying Mother
And the worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back
They'll come home stronger
And if they don't you'll know

They say that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light.

listening to. the river. good charlotte ft m.shadows and synyster gates.
johilnn.

no way.

cant believe she's like that.
her attitude like um...soooo _____.
people are suppose to be sad when they're emo!!!
nobody is suppose to be happy when they're emo...
thats just so WRONGGGG.

dont need to show off either.
dont need no people to pity you.
you should be grateful that you have (or had ) friends like them.
regret much?

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listening to. the only exception.paramore.
johlinn.

stay gold.

you know what.
icant believe you're like that.
ithought you were really different from others.
turns out im wrong.
you just had to prove me wrong.

and this is all such a rush.
iwish ihad all the time in the world.
so life wouldnt be such a rush.

just slow me down.
iknow you'll always be around.
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ijust remembered this poem.
iread it about a thousand times.
ilike it;

'Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leafs a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.'
- robert frost.

listening to. the red carpet grave. marilyn manson.
johlinn.
carpe diem.
seize the day people.